searching in ma head?

i´m still searching some stuff but look like missing why i´m not sure.. i just wonder be a young girl and have fun and do some stuffs that i never try b4 but i´m not happy doing that, soooo i can´t even undersatnd me.. am i freack? well no matter.. i just know what i need.. that a guy trust in me and dedicate most of his time 2 me.. and be a wonderfull boy and talk to ma old friends.. that what i need..