just tired of it...

Sometimes.. people don't think in what they do or what the already did.. as me there are a bunch of .... well with out comments... that make real stupids things just because they believe in it.. but suddenly they see that what they did its wrong and screwed all his life... so days as today makes me think that I'm alive and i have to say thanks and pray for a new day n maybe a new beginning but why i have to be stuck in this crazy thinking... why I'm still believing in you.. i should just take you out of ma head, out of ma mind, ma heart, ma hole system but i can't why its so hard.. sounds that its gonna past another year to be me.. i don't think so.. well the stuffs happen for something and its for real... how i wonder be 10 years ago now.. how a wonderful time with family n friends no worries.. at all, just living ma life at the fullest.. but now.. its a fight everyday even just to fall asleep how hard its getting everyday... u are the one that i miss, the one that wakes up n goes to sleep with me.. get in ma relationship with God also.. i think that i'm crazy now.. but i just meet crazy people whats wrong with this world.. i wonder be 10 years ago.. when i know about you but we don't meet each other.. and always was the good words of love with me.. so now i didn't screw up ma live..