crazy...

next week,back to the univ perhaps......nothing I hate the word perhaps probably?no...definitely someone sang: I'm sure about it, I'm definitely sure that I'm not sure about it you know We've lost the controll, haha become stronger........the only choice, who's written it, the one I'm trying to forget nothing else,closing me myself......I'm so disappointed with myself!! why couldn't I have found the page.I did look forward to the live of the launch.I wondered if I were blind-.-and what's more,I have wasted my friend's time,and he still goes .I dislike myself and I made him so excited, and then disappointed he also likes such scientific things.and I think he feels a littel bit proud of what we,i mean,the human beings,have created,and how high we have reached.I'm always thinking about the possibility of the modern-based life.It could exist somewhere,I hope.and with satellites I might see someday,that I AM right

Everybody hurts

Everybody hurts yesteday I was so sad.I didint even know why I should live on the earth!But I've talked with a couple of friends in the Internet.And the sun of my life came out again.I dont know how to say,but I believe it's fortunate,to have so many good kind friends.Firstly,I should thank God.If I wouldnt have got such friends.I would definitely go to die.Everytime when I get sad,or dont know how to live on.what to live for,the friends would come,and show me,at least I have them.I've said to myself,you have fucking luck,since you've got such nice friends.Therefore,I should live well with strength and hope. "Everybody hurts"it's the title of a song of REM.Before,when I was in usa.I've just sung it without any thoughts or feelings.But so far I think I've known what it means,at least,I'll not only say.I've got hurt,but also I would try to feel or understand what hurts the others.With hopeless love ,I've understood,the lycris in the song <>,"I've wept not only becuase of you,but also for the others".

hoy soy feliz

bueno a pesar de todas las cosas malas q han pasado durante el año anterior.. puedo decir q sali victoriosa frente a muchas de ellas y no me arrepiento de las cosas que hice.. se que no he sido una chica buena.. en todo el sentido de la palabra.. pero que mas puedo decir.. me perdi entre un amor q no sera nunca me engañe con otro y trunque algo posible solo por ser insatisfecha con migo misma.. como puede ser posible q nosotros seamos tan incomformes.. que mas les puedo decir.. mis planes de viajes son muchos.. cambiar de ambiente como toda persona de espiritu libre.. soy tan feliz porq a pesar de tener a alguien a mi lado.. me siento tan libre aunq el no entienda mi estilo loco de amar y mi libertada.. i know that u think ´that i`m freak.. but it doesn`t matter.. u know that u stilll in ma heart.. como puede ser tan posible de que las cosas sean tan obias... y q no haya persona mas ciega q vos!!!! but no matta... aaaahhhhhhh porq las cosas malas llegan juntas?? ahhhh nadie sabe nadie supo... mi mejor amiga ya ta aca... la familia junta y todo eso.. solo pa q pa ver como se acaba una etapa de la vida y empoiezan nuevas... mi abuela me dejo.. para al fin ser feliz.. y encontrarce con el amor de su vida.. mi daddy.. osea mi abu.. nunca vi amor tan grande como el que ellos se profesaban.. pero bueno.. este año se q habra muchas cosas buenas esperando por mi.. tal vez se defina mi situacion.. baby no creo q contigo cuz i know that ur not gonna leave her.. but.. no matta.. i know that we are cool.. n i'm happy 4 it... i'm complete.....