another day..

how hard has become live... u always want to hear something but the problem is that mayb i never gonna heard it.. but anyway just gotta keep moving... until i break down... what did i do.. i'll never know... u never gonna tell me what was wrong i think.. but i know what i did.. and maybe just me n only me but its gonna die with me.. but what about u... i nerver cheat on u, i know that mayb didn't say all stuffs.. but i just wanted that u be haapy but was worse.. u change n i think that its a ma fault.. cuz maybe i wasn't 4 u when u really need me.. but u didn't let me either.. so i just brake ma head down with this trying to make it work.. but nothing happen.. so difficult for me.. u can't see it.. its imposible.. just look at this ma heart is sincere.. i love u n miss u like ever.. but i trying that this dont hurts.. but its no easy... hurts everything even breath....

a wonderful story ends...

i know that i got alot of stuffs that are mine and also others that don't belong to me.. but i feel those stories as mine.. i dont got anyreason to feel them mine but is good when u live them sometimes those just help u to find out ur way.. but others just helps u to be in a fair tale.. whats better that get out or the bad stuffs n ur problems.. just run away from them.. well i was one of that kind of persons.. when something was wrong i just find a way to get far.. but whats goes around goes around with u anywere.. anyplace.. don't care were r u and what u do.. that still there... may be i just try to get confortable by ma self.. but didn't works... i tried so many times so damn hard.. but nothing works... i already had the worse moments in ma life n get close as a shell.. but didn't works... i want to help u but u don't wanna see it.. u didn't notices that i get out of everything cuz of u.. u helpe me.. u were the step that i needed it.. i want to be that for u but u dont let me get inside.. i know that its hard n how manytimes u told me that i dont have to run just face it.. but now u r running u think that u dont .. but let me tell u that isn't true.. u just need a hand.. n im giving u mine.. the diference its that u dont wanna take it.. its good if u wanna do it by ur self.. but sometimes dont work in that way.. u need help as everybody.. the problem of this world is that people dont wanna accept that we need a friendly hand to stand up again after fall down... i lerned from diferents persons.. n its no easy i know.. its hard n takes much time.. but im gonna be here.. just fighting with ma mind.. thats is a really bad friend.. sometimes memory can kill u.. bcuz just remaind u whats gonna be or how the stuffs can be.. n u just starts to fight agins u.. thast the dificult part cuz u wanna do somthing but in deep u do the oppositive.. n every thing change n then u can fell so damn stupid.. and notices the mistake that u made.. but u sorry urself cuz theres no way to back.. just gotta go fordware.. n try to fix it.. or just let that situation or idea die.. n how hard its just sit down there watching ur best feeling die... trying to don't cry.. to dont feel.. thats really hard but finally u get it.. n u know that u aren't u anymore... no anymore... u feel that u grow up a litte bit more.. but sometimes u did n in others.. u just go back n change nothing... n u just try to forget everything but its imposible cuz started to remember the stuffs that u never saw bfore.. and then u start to forget it... and all the tear errase the hopes...